Yesterday I dreamed that I have Prelims to prepare for. The other night, I dreamed that I was still in JC and that I had to take the A levels in one month's time. It was almost nightmarish. I was never so relieved to wake up and realise that it is already 2011 and I have already been through JC and A levels before.
I wonder whether the dreams mean anything. Maybe I have regrets. But...I don't. I mean yeah I feel like I have wasted my time in JC but so be it. It's either I took the JC route or the poly route and at that time, I wasn't really keen on any of the courses in poly so I went the JC route. Turned out that I wasn't cut out to be in JC and then after that, I still ended up in poly.
The only thing that I wish I have done back then was to change my subject combination or to have the balls to transfer to another JC that offered the subject combination that I wanted. Ah, but bygones will be bygones.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Differences
You know what they said, there are so many differences between a guy and a girl. There are also many differences between a new relationship as compared to an old one.
The thing is BF is not in town. He's somewhere out in the mountains in Indonesia. Maybe it was because work was hectic today so I hardly had time to spare to think about him. In fact, I have to admit that I feel kind of...comfortable not being in contact with him but when I reached home and I had some time to myself, I can't help but remembered that when I went to Bali for one whole week about two years ago, I called him almost every night. My bill for that trip was astronomical. I did get two SMSes from him on Sunday and that's it. Other than that, no calls. Maybe it's too early. Maybe he will call later on this week. Who knows?
I'm not feeling indignant or neglected or whatever. I just think that there is always a stark difference in behavior between guys and girls in a relationship. Even when it comes to overseas phonecalls.
Or maybe cause the relationship is getting on its years. Yeah, dah tua. Honeymoon period is LOOOOOONG over. We are at the stage where we are just too comfortable with each other. I have no urge and no motivation to push this relationship to another level which is marriage so this relationship will just remain status quo for now. Unless the BF becomes the Fiance or something like that which I don't think will ever happen in the near future.
An acquaintance got married by performing the akad nikah first while the wedding reception will be held next year. I prefer that! A little like what those Chinese couples do but knowing how we Malays tend to jaga our waterface, there is no way in hell I can do that. I mean by getting that certificate, a couple can prioritise and set aside money for the house first but if the wife gets pregnant before the wedding reception then people will think she has a child out of wedlock when in actual fact, they are already legally married. Why is it that a Malay wedding seems to be dictated by what other people think?
The thing is BF is not in town. He's somewhere out in the mountains in Indonesia. Maybe it was because work was hectic today so I hardly had time to spare to think about him. In fact, I have to admit that I feel kind of...comfortable not being in contact with him but when I reached home and I had some time to myself, I can't help but remembered that when I went to Bali for one whole week about two years ago, I called him almost every night. My bill for that trip was astronomical. I did get two SMSes from him on Sunday and that's it. Other than that, no calls. Maybe it's too early. Maybe he will call later on this week. Who knows?
I'm not feeling indignant or neglected or whatever. I just think that there is always a stark difference in behavior between guys and girls in a relationship. Even when it comes to overseas phonecalls.
Or maybe cause the relationship is getting on its years. Yeah, dah tua. Honeymoon period is LOOOOOONG over. We are at the stage where we are just too comfortable with each other. I have no urge and no motivation to push this relationship to another level which is marriage so this relationship will just remain status quo for now. Unless the BF becomes the Fiance or something like that which I don't think will ever happen in the near future.
An acquaintance got married by performing the akad nikah first while the wedding reception will be held next year. I prefer that! A little like what those Chinese couples do but knowing how we Malays tend to jaga our waterface, there is no way in hell I can do that. I mean by getting that certificate, a couple can prioritise and set aside money for the house first but if the wife gets pregnant before the wedding reception then people will think she has a child out of wedlock when in actual fact, they are already legally married. Why is it that a Malay wedding seems to be dictated by what other people think?
Friday, December 16, 2011
My resolutions for next year
How many days more to 2012? I have no idea. Anyway, if it is really true about the world coming to an end in 2012, then I would like to at least fulfill two dreams-
1) Learn enough Japanese to at least read one manga raws chapter.
2) Finish at least one story that has been swirling in my head since forever.
I hope the world doesn't really come to an end next year. I have so many things that I have yet to fulfill. It kind of put a stop to any future plans. Also, I should strive to become a better Muslimah but it's a bit hard. That's why I wanna get married asap. But thinking about the cost of holding a wedding reception....
I'll shelf that plan to after 2012. If the world doesn't end of course.
1) Learn enough Japanese to at least read one manga raws chapter.
2) Finish at least one story that has been swirling in my head since forever.
I hope the world doesn't really come to an end next year. I have so many things that I have yet to fulfill. It kind of put a stop to any future plans. Also, I should strive to become a better Muslimah but it's a bit hard. That's why I wanna get married asap. But thinking about the cost of holding a wedding reception....
I'll shelf that plan to after 2012. If the world doesn't end of course.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Bokura Ga Ita Live-Action Movie Trailer
This made me cry. Especially the part when Nanami chases after the train calling out Yano's name. The waterworks started there and then. Last chapter of the manga will be out in two month's time. Ten years in the making. I am pretty sure it will be a happy ending.
Train service down again
I am sure glad that I didn't go gallivanting after work today cause train services from Marina Bay to Braddell and vice versa are down. That's the normal route that I always take home from work. But I wish I have been there to witness this scene
Oh lordy. Somebody actually smashed the door cause the ventilation was pretty bad. It must be somebody from the middle carriages. Some people commented on Facebook that the person should have just pushed down the emergency doors at the two ends of the train. Sure. That will just help the people in the last end carriages anyway. Keeping in mind how crowded it can be during peak hours, do you think air will circulate equally into the other, specifically the middle carriages? So yeah, I don't blame the person who smashed the window.
Or maybe he just got fed-up with how pathetic Singapore's transport system has become so he vented out his frustration at the door. Poor guy. Can't blame him.
But seriously, I think the poor SMRT transport system cannot take the load of trains running every two minutes. It is high time for the North-South Line to break down with the high frequency of trains running through it each day. I get the feeling that the SMRT rail tracks are not meant for heavy usage anyway. It was first built in 1986...(I think?) when Singapore's population wasn't as crazily high as it is today. Tsk. While I am it, I think that there are a alot of resources in Singapore which cannot sustain our crazily high population nowadays *cough*housing*cough*transport*cough*medical care*cough*space constraints basically goddamit*cough*
Ehem...excuse me. I don't know why I have a coughing fit all of a sudden.
So anyway, icing on the cake will be that the East-West Line broke down as well while I am on my way to work tomorrow. Then I will be late, having to jostle with people for whatever free shuttle bus or exorbitant taxis to get to work and ladida, tomorrow my other colleague is on leave so I have to open the workplace and if I am late, then woe is to the people waiting. Muahahaha.
Ok I'll shut up.
Oh lordy. Somebody actually smashed the door cause the ventilation was pretty bad. It must be somebody from the middle carriages. Some people commented on Facebook that the person should have just pushed down the emergency doors at the two ends of the train. Sure. That will just help the people in the last end carriages anyway. Keeping in mind how crowded it can be during peak hours, do you think air will circulate equally into the other, specifically the middle carriages? So yeah, I don't blame the person who smashed the window.
Or maybe he just got fed-up with how pathetic Singapore's transport system has become so he vented out his frustration at the door. Poor guy. Can't blame him.
But seriously, I think the poor SMRT transport system cannot take the load of trains running every two minutes. It is high time for the North-South Line to break down with the high frequency of trains running through it each day. I get the feeling that the SMRT rail tracks are not meant for heavy usage anyway. It was first built in 1986...(I think?) when Singapore's population wasn't as crazily high as it is today. Tsk. While I am it, I think that there are a alot of resources in Singapore which cannot sustain our crazily high population nowadays *cough*housing*cough*transport*cough*medical care*cough*space constraints basically goddamit*cough*
Ehem...excuse me. I don't know why I have a coughing fit all of a sudden.
So anyway, icing on the cake will be that the East-West Line broke down as well while I am on my way to work tomorrow. Then I will be late, having to jostle with people for whatever free shuttle bus or exorbitant taxis to get to work and ladida, tomorrow my other colleague is on leave so I have to open the workplace and if I am late, then woe is to the people waiting. Muahahaha.
Ok I'll shut up.
Stingy? Me?
I was just being called stingy by somebody.
Hmm...
You know, it's not like I have a choice.
If I am getting a higher salary then yeah, I can probably throw a lot of blue Yusof Ishaks out of the window.
But I'm not.
I barely have enough to spend on myself sometimes.
Is it so bad to think about the future first?
Is it so bad to save for the future?
Is it so bad to practice self-restrain on myself?
Is it so bad to not tell people that I do alms?
Is it so bad to be practical and minimalistic in life?
Is it so bad not to be wasteful in life?
Well, whatever.
Whenever people throw this accusation at me, of course I will feel indignant.
Sometimes I wonder whether is it because there is some ring of truth in it.
But ultimately, I know myself best.
I am stingy when it comes to me.
And yeah, so if I am called stingy then all the more reason for me not to act benevolent huh?
Sounds like a good idea.
Hmm...
You know, it's not like I have a choice.
If I am getting a higher salary then yeah, I can probably throw a lot of blue Yusof Ishaks out of the window.
But I'm not.
I barely have enough to spend on myself sometimes.
Is it so bad to think about the future first?
Is it so bad to save for the future?
Is it so bad to practice self-restrain on myself?
Is it so bad to not tell people that I do alms?
Is it so bad to be practical and minimalistic in life?
Is it so bad not to be wasteful in life?
Well, whatever.
Whenever people throw this accusation at me, of course I will feel indignant.
Sometimes I wonder whether is it because there is some ring of truth in it.
But ultimately, I know myself best.
I am stingy when it comes to me.
And yeah, so if I am called stingy then all the more reason for me not to act benevolent huh?
Sounds like a good idea.
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